Bootstrap Kinda Week

October 9th

Ever have one of those weeks where you know you just have to dig in, shut up and get to work? Last week of tri training and I’m getting tired and honestly, a little bored. Work stress has my skin looking like I’m in high school, and this morning I found myself staring at a clump of hair that had fallen out in the shower. Fabulous.

Never a fan of wallowing, I realize it’s time to tie a ribbon in my pony tail, slap on some lip gloss and grab a cup of espresso. Life is too short to spend even one day sitting around feeling sorry for myself. I refuse.

Today, I’m celebrating:

~ Cooling temperatures and long sleeve shirts on morning bike rides
~ Pumpkin everything. Pumpkin bagels, lattes and my new favorite dessert: non-fat vanilla yogurt mixed with a 1/2 cup of pumpkin puree with a dash of cinnamon. Giddyup.
~ Having time to knit and challenging myself to learn new techniques. This week — intarsia. Any suggestions?
~ New music, namely Imogen Heap, Modest Mouse and Jay-Z Unplugged. My hips shake even when I’m sitting at my desk — although I don’t recommend listening to Jay at work. More than once I’ve been red faced when a coworker has come into my office just as my rap music begins describing women crassly.
~ Friends with lots of ambition who inspire me to be better every day
~ Seeing a cute new boy in the pool and then proceeding to kick his butt in the workout. I’m competitive to a fault.

Here’s hoping all of us who are struggling at the moment take a second to remember that we are in control of our happiness and life is just a matter of attitude. Ain’t nobody going to get me down… oh no, I’ve got to keep on movin’.

~K

P.S. Sounds like many of you either avoided your reunion or attended and also had an odd experience. I guess it was such a strange night because I loved high school. I was a dork, but I loved studying, being involved, etc. I knew lots of people at the reunion and was expecting we’d all just pick up where we left off. Instead, each conversation seemed to entail shoveling through superficial baloney for 10 minutes before I got to what they were really doing and how they were feeling. Then I found myself uncharacteristically shy about what I was doing. It was a bit taxing and I’m sure would have been more tolerable if I’d been drinking. Alas, the Margarita Maven is on the wagon until I cross the tri finish line.

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  1. Amen sister! I feel like this is my life right now..except, I mean, completely different..I think I’m going to print this out so I can reread it whenever I start feeling sorry for myself. Thanks, girl!

  2. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
    Eleanor Roosevelt

    Hugs, Kel! And kick some tri-ass!

  3. Love those 3 artists. Actually, Jay-Z’s unplugged version of Izzo (H.O.V.A) is one of my favorite songs, even though I’m still not really sure what he’s talking about. I find I tend to listen more to the music and ignore the lyrics… which make for some embarassing situations sometimes when I tell people my favorite songs. You are such an inspiration… in fact I’m going to put on some lip gloss right now!

  4. Thanks for the pick-me up. My eyes are swollen from a pity-tear fest last night. Time to move on! Good luck with the tri. I’m really interested in doing one myself. We’ll see.

  5. love laeroports quote.. 🙂 I just skipped my 15 year reunion this past weekend. Haven’t been to one yet, and I dunno know why. I was even one of the popular kids (but that’s not too hard given there were 81 people in my graduating class. 🙂

  6. I am loving pumpkin pie shakes at a local eating joint, so yummy. Also, I need to remember I am in charge of my happiness, thanks for the reminder.

  7. Stress is a dangerous thing to us physically and I’m glad to know you recognize and are working towards alleviating the symptoms.

    Because my dad was in the Army, we moved a lot and I went to 17 different schools before graduating from high school–with my senior year being interrupted two months before graduation to move from Okinawa to North Caroina. I did attend the 10th NC reunion and it was horrible. Not only did I not know many people having attended the school only the last 2 months but some people were really mean to me at the reunion–for which I won’t bore you with the story. I hated it and the way I let those self-centered people make me feel bad about myself. I won’t ever attend another one as I’m totally responsible for my own happpiness and am not going to let people do that to me again.

  8. Ooh, pumpkin in yogurt sounds very tasty. Glad to see that you are taking your mood into your own hands. 🙂

    Strange, I went to my reunion and it was fun. Of course it was totally casual and at a park. Plus, my friends from HS that I care about are still my friends today, and we were really the only ones there that we knew. LOL! I am debating if I will go to my 15 year if they have one (that would be next summer).

    Loved your comment about shaking your hips at your desk. I often chair dance too, but luckily the only people who ever see that are the hubby or the bird. 😉

  9. Sigh. I needed to read that. I’ve just had a morning where I found out I left my checkbook and phone charger in Texas, had an annoying and uncomfortable conversation with my mother, and an argument with my husband of only 2 months. Sigh again. I’m particularly annoyed with leaving stuff behind because I took extra cares to seem responsible, clean up after myself, and not be a burden on anyone. Now someone has to cover shipping costs. Gah!

    I (and my husband) am gearing up for a big move and a change, and looking for new work, so I’m stressed but I need to change my cranky, tearful, short tempered attitude now! I think I’ll hang out at the coffe shop, read, and knit. Not exciting but better than sitting around the house.

    P.S. I *love* Jay-Z. 😉

  10. P.P.S. I love your honesty and your sharing on your blog. I find I tend to gloss things over quite a bit on my own blog, I have a hard time with that…but I think it’s really beneficial to others to read about how you’re managing stress and moods in your life. I like how you share the yuck, but also share how you’re changing things! Maybe I’ll give it a try at some point. Of course, posting photos of yarn, fabric, and knitting always cheers me up enough in and of itself, haha!

  11. Ditto Julia, all of it. Except switch Texas for Chicago, moving for trying to make my current house seem like a new place by drastic de-cluttering, looking for work with buckling down to work and knitting with making delightful bath fizzies!

    But especially ditto the p.p.s.

  12. i’m dying to try this pumpkin puree & yogurt concoction! is this the same pumpkin you had to tell me is NOT the same as pie filling???

  13. I love pumpkin everything too! And congrats to you on heading into your last week of triathalon training – quite an accomplishment! Have fun with the knitting 🙂

  14. Amen, Sister! I woke up this morning and realized that I needed some “bootstrapping”, too; being cranky/stressed/whatever is such a drag! Part of my therapy is going to involve sitting in the house so that I can pretend it’s really Fall (no cooling temps yet), and then I’m going to bake some stuff so that I can thrust Fall upon our neighbors whether they’re ready or not. A ribbon in the ponytail also has merit. 🙂

  15. You’re way more mentally tough than me, but it seems that i, along with most of your other readers, was in need of a kick in the ass today.

    Glad you’re liking the music…i have more for you already. Today i’ve enjoyed the new Band of Horses, Bloc Party – Silent Alarm and Arcade Fire – Neon Bible…the last 2 are not new albums, but new to me.

  16. I’ve already sent a link to today’s post to friends who made similar comments to me. I really appreciated your thoughts today on what seems to be such a wacky week. And, I’m super impressed that you stayed on the wagon especially during an event like the reunion! Good luck on the final push to triathlon day!

  17. I’m one of those friends to whom Sarah sent your link…and I remember reading your blog long ago, but then losing it in the enormity of Blogland somehow. At any rate, thanks for the bootstrap post. I completely needed that today. October is one of my very favorite months, and I feel like the fun of it is already disappearing with my mountng stress. So, no more wallowing. I will enjoy. Things will get done. Thanks! And good luck Triathlon Girl!

  18. we all have part of those bootstraps for you. you will be in my prayers this week my sweet dear friend. holding you up as you make this huge final push!

  19. I have to put in a vote for Pumpkin soup!

    10 year reunions are BIzarre!!!! And from what I’ve heard from my friends, 20 year ones are ever more BIzarre! If you really want to stay in touch with someone, you will…..that’s more normal than forcing relations at a party….

  20. Good attitude Kelly. I always come to your blog and get a pick me up of energy and zest for living. The pumpkim yogurt idea is fabulous, I’m into the yogurt heavy these days. As far as reunions haven’t been to one yet. They announce where I’m at whenever they have one tho, Turkey, Germany, traveling the world, I just wave as I fly over, things change, oh well. I love the comment about kicking the cute boy’s butt, how funny is that????

  21. Wow… I need to print out this post and tape it to my wall for an energy boost! I was feeling a little sluggish, but now I want to go to the gym and tackle impossible tasks. I’m a pretty positive person, but you’ve totally got me beat. :o)

  22. work, schmork. it’s dreadful. i’m buried. but have the very best of diana krall to listen to, so that makes it not quite as hip-shakin as your day, but somewhat tolerable.

  23. funny that one on the wagon is the same one who already called the happy hour spot for friday. i think the wagon only has wheels sunday thru thursday.

  24. Vickie LeBlanc October 11, 2007

    You’ve got me hooked on vanilla yogourt with pumpkin puree and cinnamon. Ever so yummy !

  25. I need to get Laeroports quote tattooed on my forehead!

  26. I was talking to my mom a few weeks ago and mentioned how I noticed I had lost my “Pollyanna” attitude and I needed to go back taking anti-depressants. (I’m not saying you need to). I was a bit depressed (ha) about that, but if it brings me back to my normal way, then there’s nothing wrong with it. I really miss looking at the sunny side of life, even if hubby will probably want to wring my neck again (grin)! Either way, good for you!

    Anyway, for the intarsia. I found an article that finally made it click for me: Knitscene from Interweave knits: Spring 2007.

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