Marched

April 1st

March 2010

It was a busy, fun month with time for friends. With the rain we’ve been having, it seems the desert is celebrating the new season too. Every tree, bush and flower in Phoenix is in bloom and the wildest of colors are on display. I feel like we are having one last hurrah before the weather gets sassy.

And oh, the hilarity in getting marching papers in March. Someone laugh, please.

what next?

I’ve spent more time this week navel gazing than I’d care to admit. I appreciate all the kind words about my positive outlook on being suddenly without a job. I paint a pretty rosy picture when in truth, there have been more than a few tears in the last few days. So, I’m doing everything in my power to keep myself from sliding into a pit of self-pity, including wearing bright colors and slapping a smile on my face.

And oh, the platitudes. I know these things are true — that I’ve got what really matters in life. A family I adore. Good health. Faith. And again with the statistics: as a 30-year-old woman with several degrees, a saving account and little debt, I’m in a tiny slice of the percentage pie of women internationally. I know I’m lucky. Hell, I’ve worked and lived with too many women here and abroad to not be reminded of my blessed reality each morning when I wake up safe in my comfortable suburban home.

I get it. I’m still upset and really damn sad. So, I called in the expert — my mama, who reminded me: Donley ladies don’t wear wallow or pity well. We’re much prettier in determined and tenacious.

So noted, Mama. So noted.

A new month. New possibility. Plenty of time to consider the next step. Here is hoping April brings bouquets of flowers, abundance and happiness to us all.

~K

Posted in
Journal
Follow the comments.

10 Responses

  1. And hugs! Of course, many hugs. Can’t wait to see you soon <3

  2. Hang in there Kelli, I too have found myself in such situations many times, and every time a window has opened and I’ve squeezed through. So shall you. Things happen for a reason, and it will work out. Keep smilin’ Keep gardening, and when all else fails call some inspiring people to gather round your table with some wine and laughs!
    Hang in there, hugs to you!
    Sandy

  3. Pretty, determined, and tenacious?!?! Yes, that is the way to stick it to April! Go Kelli! Go Kelli!

    NO FOOLIN’!

  4. First of all great pic of you!
    Second, great post. Hugs to you!

  5. There’s nothing wrong with a good cry. Cleanses the system. Shows you care. So do it. Get it out. Remember why you feel that way. Now go out and hold your head high. Puffy red eyes and all. Because something even better will be waiting for you. After all, Sunday is Easter, and Kelli will rise again. 🙂

  6. Got no words of wisdom but you know I love you!! Should have brought you along to newport!!! Hugs!

  7. Billions of kisses and hugs on your way from Italy! Happy Easter to you and your family. Easter is about renowal and rebirth, don’t you think?……

  8. It’s OK to be sad, OK to be upset. Doesn’t matter how “lucky” we are, we are still human and feel what we feel. You will pick yourself back up, and rebound. But before every Easter Sunday is a Good Friday when we grieve, and a Saturday that seems bleak. There’s a winter before spring. It’s natural to let the old die away.

    We’re all rooting for you!! Hugs to you.

  9. So sorry to hear about your job, Kelli. The school I’m working/going to grad school at is lowering the hammer at the end of this month. It seems like it HAS TO get better soon!!!

  10. I’m sorry to hear about your job. 🙁 I was in that situation last year, so if there is anything I can do to help, just let me know.

Leave a Comment: